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Name: hteB
Birthday: 1/5/1991
Gender: Female
Interests: Music(GREEN DAY, Evanescence, My Chemical Romance, New Found Glory), friends(Nessa, Leah, Rachel), Mike Dirnt, Billie Joe Armstrong, Tre Cool (Aaah, the Tre-ness!), writing
Expertise: Expertise? I have no expertise..
Occupation: Unemployed/Between Jobs
Industry: Media
Message: message me
AIM:  Whatsername98
AIM:  Amnesic Cow
Member Since:
7/17/2004
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| In case anyone didn't see that last entry..I have a new xanga:)
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| Okay, sorry..but my high-ranking site was down for a while.
While it was down, I thought it was down forever...but the goddess of
everything revived it. Thanks, Ness. Okay, so I created a new
account..it's thew0rldisBLACK.
Here it is
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| Alright, I'm going to clear up a bunch of stuff and mess even more stuff up.
Yes, I'm grounded from the computer. My dad won't tell me when I can
get back on. If I haven't told you why, then I probably won't tell you.
Except for Leah, I don't think I've talked to her lately. I'll tell you
later:) If you're wondering why I'm on...figure it out.
I'm coming down to Georgia this summer and possibly this Spring Break.
I don't know how long I'll be staying, nothing is definite yet.
Rachel, post on my xanga all you want. Actually, I like it when you
post. Don't listen to her, and don't let her tell you who's xangas you
can and can't post on. That's stupid. Freedom of Speech.
Okay, I know what I'm about to say is going to cause a huge
arguement...but from now on I'm making protected entries, because I
don't want certain people posting crap on my site. You know who you
are. Hopefully.
I'm sick and tired of all this crap that's going on. We need to figure
out where we stand, and stick to it. People need to decide who their
friends are. Get over small issues.
When I moved, it was really hard. There was alot of denial going on.
It's been really hard for me, leaving the people that I'd been with for
a long time. Leaving the church that I'd practically grown up with.
Leaving my school, and the friends that I'd made there. Although it's
been difficult, we need to realize that I'm never coming back and we
can't dwell on the past. Because we can't rewind, and things will never
be the same again. This doesn't mean that I'm leaving all my friends,
it just means that we need to move on in our lives and stop moping over
things we can't change. I left over a year ago. Doesn't feel like it,
does it? How does thinking about spending a whole depressing year
moping around make you feel? Like you had no life? Join the club.
Now that I've probably made someone mad, why stop? We need to clear up
some issues. And I think everyone knows who I'm talking to. Not to make
this sound like an elaborate speech or anything, but I looked up the
word "friend" at dictionary.com. This is one of their definitions of
the word "friend":
A person whom one knows, likes, or trusts.
Now, it seems to me that the trust part is deteriorating. How can you
trust someone who talks bad about your friends, to your face? Yeah, I'm
talking about how you would talk about Leah. Did you not know I'm
friends with her? I'm sorry you can't get along with her, but I would
appreciate if you brought her down to some other person, not me.
Another trust problem. Charlie. Remember how many nights we would spend
talking about him? Well, you need to realize that I really don't like
him. Really. I know how much you were obsessed with how we liked each
other, but, like the move, you need to MOVE ON.
Does anyone find it ironic that you were obsessed with trying to talk
to Rachel? Do you remember? Remember iming her over..and over..and
over...and when she got mad, you were offended? You didn't know what
you'd done? Well, now you should realize what you've done. You're
annoying. Okay?! You're annoying! Have you ever counted how many times
I've warned you that what you're doing is annoying? Calling people
eight times? Iming Rachel 200 times? Singing on the phone? It's
ANNOYING! That's why people don't respect you. Sorry to break it to
you. Maybe this will help you realize what you're doing is annoying. Be
mature...you're fourteen already! When you're sixteen, you can't go
around calling people five hundred times over and over. Obviously,
they're not home..or they don't want to talk to you!
Do you know why you're so "heartbroken" all the time? Yeah, you might
have an answer. Is it the right answer? No, really, think about it......
Did you ever realize it might be because you're sticking your nose in
things you shouldn't be? Oh, I know, we've been over this before. More
than once, actually. But this time I want you to really think about it.
Lets have an example.
You're walking out to your car, and you see Charlie and Lindsey walking
through the parking lot. You call all of your friends, and you're upset
because Lindsey is cheating on her boyfriend.
First of all, you're calling all of your friends and telling them
things you don't know are true. Hmm...am I the only one who would call
this gossip..?
Second, how do you know she's cheating? What if she was walking to his car to get her homework from that day she was sick?
Are you seeing my point? It's not your business! I know you're trying
to help your friends, but the truth is...you're not. You're not helping
them at all, you're just hurting yourself. Because Charlie will get mad
at you, ruin your friendship, and make alot of people dislike you. See?
School is life. School is life? Who's isn't? I mean, who has a life
outside of school? Nah, it's not possible. I find that sick, that you
have no life outside of school...so you have to look to SCHOOL for a
life. I understand that to have a life in the future, you must go to
school, learn, blah blah..but a LIFE? School? What happens when you
graduate highschool? Move on to college? Bang, you just left your life
behind. Now you have no life, no friends, and no future because during
those twelve years all you focused on was your life, school. You didn't
think about what you're going to do when you graduate! Not very smart,
huh? So, maybe you'll say that after highschool, college is your life.
What happens when you graduate from there? Change what your life is
again?
I know this is going to start a huge arguement, but I think that we need to get things straight. Alot of things.
*Waits for explosion*
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| It should seem obvious to you
Your screams and cries are never going to work
And all of your time gets wasted
In my daze
And I'm looking back now
At where I have gone wrong
And why I could not seem to get along
My interests are longing
To break from these chains
These chains that control
My future's aim...
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Leah...be sick again, but not too sick. I miss talking to you at
lunch:( Eh, what's new. I went to the Large Place with Skinny Boards
last night. Good teachers, evil kids. None my age, two girls about 12
who spoke spanish and looked like they were talking about me. I dunno
what they had to talk about, they sucked anyways. Couldn't even do a
straddle/off. Bah.
Well, I bought the stupid poster..and then something weird came up so I
called the number they gave, and got some weird guy that acted like it
was my fault. Even though it had been happening with alot of people. So
I asked him if my credit card had been billed, and he said he didn't
know..he didn't know if that poster was in stock either. Said he'd go
to the warehouse and see if they had more. I..just..want..the...poster.
Please?!
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